I write about mental health, from my own perspective and more generally.
My journey is very personal but other people have chosen to take it very personally too and because there are people who would use what I write in a negative way, I feel the need for a layer of protection and for the time being I have chosen to make some of the mental health content of this blog private. Should you wish to read those posts please feel free to contact me here and we can chat.
One day there will be less stigma around the sharing of the mental health journey so many struggle with. We can but hope.
Back I go… Anxiety makes you tired
There comes a point when you are having a mental health crisis where you reach the bottom of the ride. I tend to describe my anxiety like a fairground ride. You have your uphill climb, which is hard work, but you have no choice. Then you have the slow but gentle ride along a flat… Continue reading→
Back I go. Therapy. What anxiety makes me do…
This week is my last week of therapy before Christmas. I am not excited about my session but I am ok with going and last week was helpful, if not a fair bit painful. This is a brief post this week, but people have asked me what anxiety makes me do, how it manifests in… Continue reading→
Life has been pretty tough for us & me, over the past few months. Adulting, to coin a social media popular word, can be pretty challenging and sometimes life can throw things at you that you have to handle, even when you don’t want to. I have shared a fair bit about my mental health,… Continue reading→
Back I go.Therapy Homework: cleaning out my head and my social media feed…
Weekly therapy is looming. This afternoon, I get 50 minutes to disgorge the messy contents of my head and see if the jumble that is my anxiety and what’s going on in my life can be made sense of, in any shape or form. I am tired and I don’t really want to go, but… Continue reading→
Therapy – it gets worse before it gets better….
So I am three weeks into therapy. I should be feeling better right? All my problems should be obvious by now and we should have answers tumbling out to fix them. I should be feeling like I can see an improvement? Er, no, nope, not at all. In fact, it get worse before it gets… Continue reading→
Back I go. Week 2 of therapy.
Today is therapy day. Session 2. Last week’s session was rushed and because I was nervous about what would happen and be said, and because I had rather stupidly overloaded my morning both before and after the session, taking on too many tasks and other people’s problems my mind was all over the place. I… Continue reading→
And back I go…
Back I go. Sat in a waiting room. Paperwork filled in. Assessment complete. Waiting to see a complete stranger who will soon know more about me than most people who think they know me. Who will probably ask me questions that will make me cry. Who will listen whilst I pour out the jumbled, angry,… Continue reading→
It won’t just go away…
My mental health. My anxiety. It won’t just go away. I can’t just decide that after a life time of anxiety that I’m going to be just ok. My mental health doesn’t work for the convenience and comfort of other people. I don’t wake up every day thinking “how can I make other people’s lives… Continue reading→
Not feeling ok right now, and that’s ok.
I am not feeling ok right now. I shared a photo and this caption on my Instagram feed this weekend. I am a firm believer in being honest, and sharing where I am at, mainly because it keeps me accountable and stops me shying away from life and festering away inside myself and also because… Continue reading→
Dear people in my phone…
Dear people in my phone. I just wanted to say thank you. You are in my phone. We communicate via WhatsApp, or Instagram, Twitter or Facebook. We possibly don’t know each other in “real life” or we don’t see each other often, but we communicate on our phones. You don’t know how much your support… Continue reading→