The long winded title for this post should be “just because I have a mental health diagnosis, doesn’t mean I don’t know my own mind and what is or isn’t good for it”. I often think that people with mental health issues like anxiety and depression, once they have come to terms with that and […]
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2019 is in full swing, we are almost midway through January, and life has moved on from the Christmas madness. I went back to therapy last week, and it was ok. I am doing ok. We seem to be getting to the root of what may be the cause of some of my anxiety and […]
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There comes a point when you are having a mental health crisis where you reach the bottom of the ride. I tend to describe my anxiety like a fairground ride. You have your uphill climb, which is hard work, but you have no choice. Then you have the slow but gentle ride along a flat […]
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This week is my last week of therapy before Christmas. I am not excited about my session but I am ok with going and last week was helpful, if not a fair bit painful. This is a brief post this week, but people have asked me what anxiety makes me do, how it manifests in […]
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In January of this year, I gave up meat. Well, actually it was almost February, but for most of January I hadn’t eaten much meat. I caused alarm on Facebook by sharing my new quasi vegetarian status and I have shared a few posts about giving up meat. I have eaten meat occasionally when I […]
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So I am three weeks into therapy. I should be feeling better right? All my problems should be obvious by now and we should have answers tumbling out to fix them. I should be feeling like I can see an improvement? Er, no, nope, not at all. In fact, it get worse before it gets […]
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Today is therapy day. Session 2. Last week’s session was rushed and because I was nervous about what would happen and be said, and because I had rather stupidly overloaded my morning both before and after the session, taking on too many tasks and other people’s problems my mind was all over the place. I […]
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Back I go. Sat in a waiting room. Paperwork filled in. Assessment complete. Waiting to see a complete stranger who will soon know more about me than most people who think they know me. Who will probably ask me questions that will make me cry. Who will listen whilst I pour out the jumbled, angry, […]
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My mental health. My anxiety. It won’t just go away. I can’t just decide that after a life time of anxiety that I’m going to be just ok. My mental health doesn’t work for the convenience and comfort of other people. I don’t wake up every day thinking “how can I make other people’s lives […]
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I am not feeling ok right now. I shared a photo and this caption on my Instagram feed this weekend. I am a firm believer in being honest, and sharing where I am at, mainly because it keeps me accountable and stops me shying away from life and festering away inside myself and also because […]
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