You’re back?

Well hello again? You’re back? Or at least you think you are? You want to come back into my life…you want me to let you in and take up the space you had before?  You want to control me? You want to put me back into that place, where YOU think I should be? You […]

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Is feeling numb ok?

Christmas can be a challenging time, for those who struggle with mental health issues.  It’s supposed to be a time of joy, goodwill to all men, fun, love, and all the “nice” things we are supposed to feel.  I love Christmas because my children enjoy the festivities, the gift giving, and seeing friends and family. […]

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I don’t have to make other people happy…

In all the months of therapy, that I have had, since I was referred for help after my breakdown and diagnosis of anxiety disorder in 2013, one theme has come up, again and again, with my therapist talking me through how I handle life, and the wishes and expectations of others and the effect it […]

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We fail new mothers…

I came across an interesting article this week, about the effects of extreme sleep deprivation on new mothers and that this contributes to anxiety and post partum issues like post partum anxiety & depression. We fail new mothers, and despite this being obvious we still aren’t doing much to fix that.  As someone who struggled […]

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Please don’t call me…

And I won’t call you… Yup, that’s right. I am not being rude, or maybe I am, but I can explain. I have a reason. It probably isn’t logical to you, but it’s real for me. The problem is, is that I HATE talking on the phone. Truly, truly, I hate it. It brings out […]

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I don’t need you to fix me.

But I do need you to understand, or try to understand… Two years ago, this week, I took myself to my GP surgery and asked my doctor for help. I told her I could no longer pretend I was “OK” and that I needed to see someone or get some help, to deal with the […]

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The problem with being good at faking it…

Is that when you stop, it takes a bit of getting used to… This post is NOT about what you think. It is a family friendly blog, after all. Before I start with an explanation for the post title, I want to emphasise that I AM fine, I am  tired, I am trying to work out how […]

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A moment of parental anxiety

I am having a moment, I will probably have another moment or two, tonight, and tomorrow morning. It’s a parental anxiety moment, mainly a mix of anxiety and emotion. It’s a very silly little wobble, I know, but I can’t help it. My boy, my lovely boy, is going on his first school trip tomorrow, […]

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I can’t….

That’s a phrase that can encompass many meanings. It can mean reluctance do to something, or expressing a physical or emotional inability to do or take part in something. It is often seen as a negative set of words.  For me, it’s not something I say often, to myself, or to others.  At almost 15 […]

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Christmas isn’t fun for everyone….

A blogger I admire, and follow, wrote a piece for the BBC, this week, about coping with Christmas when you are struggling with mental health issues. She writes very well, and is very honest about her own struggles with her mental health and is very active in campagining for awareness of mental health issues.  Last […]

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