And back I go…

Back I go.  Sat in a waiting room. Paperwork filled in. Assessment complete.  Waiting to see a complete stranger who will soon know more about me than most people who think they know me.  Who will probably ask me questions that will make me cry.  Who will listen whilst I pour out the jumbled, angry, […]

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It won’t just go away…

My mental health. My anxiety. It won’t just go away.  I can’t just decide that after a life time of anxiety that I’m going to be just ok. My mental health doesn’t work for the convenience and comfort of other people.  I don’t wake up every day thinking “how can I make other people’s lives […]

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Dear people in my phone…

Dear people in my phone.  I just wanted to say thank you.  You are in my phone. We communicate via WhatsApp, or Instagram, Twitter or Facebook. We possibly don’t know each other in “real life” or we don’t see each other often, but we communicate on our phones.  You don’t know how much your support […]

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When in doubt, or the going gets tough, bake bread.

When in doubt, bake bread. When the going gets tough, or I am tired, or stressed, I don’t go shopping, I don’t get drunk, I don’t watch sad movies to allow myself to cry, or eat vast quantities of comfort foods. I do things, productive and creative things. I like to cook, but mostly I […]

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It’s not me, it’s you…

  Something I have learned in my journey to dealing with my own mental health and getting myself into a more fixed better place is that not everyone wants you to be in that better place. Not everyone has grace for you to change your life. People don’t cope very well when someone makes changes […]

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